I feel stupid...

raves     by Beautiful? Insane? Perfect.♥
I like this kid, Seb...
He doesn't know I exist.
We've only ever spoken once.
And he give me butterflies.
So many that it makes me sick.
...he's so beautiful, and I'm nothing to him...
Not even a friend.
I need help...
It's gonna be Jayde all over again.
We're gonna become realli good friends, and won't date because we could ruin our friendship.
I bet you.
This is how it starts...
I'm so screwed up...
I always fall for the guy I can't ever have.

Ugh, k, I think my rant is over.
I'll go back to my self-loathing now...lol.

Peace >.<
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  • raves     [-] by Funtastic
    I hear you. But your gorgeous so I bet you will get him. If not there are plenty of beautiful guys out there for you...ecspecially with your new hair cut^_^

    Good luck!
  • raves     [-] by Beautiful? Insane? Perfect.♥
    Awh thank you, darlin'!
    Lol!

    x
  • raves +1   [-] by mindfreak17
    yea happens to me all the time start talkin to himand after a lil let him know how u feel
  • raves     [-] by Beautiful? Insane? Perfect.♥
    Mmm I'm just kinda worried he'll react bad, like Jayde did...

    Peace x
  • raves +1   [-] by mindfreak17
    yea but u dnt get no where if u dnt try
  • raves +2 -1 [-] by Nica22
    Sadly the way you feel about Seb denying you. Is the way God feels about you when you deny Him.. =-(...Oh, I replied to your comments...hope you enjoy them....its about that lady who is wanting to be a man having a baby and all..
  • raves +3   [-] by Beautiful? Insane? Perfect.♥
    God does not exist for me, he was a figment of some guy's imagination.
    You have no business here if you're only going to criticise me and my belief, it's is a personal issue, and I wanted advice, not some know-it-all Jeebus lover's opinion on something entirely unrelated.

    Oh, and I did enjoy those responses. Hope you enjoy mine.
    Be careful of the words you choose, I won't be polite for much longer.
  • raves +1   [-] by Nica22
    You were never polite!

    Here is my advice.....I'm engage to my best friend...I've known Him since 7th grade....

    We never thought of dating because we thought it would destroy our friendship...but then we realized....whats the worse to come...if you too are truly good friends...then if it were not to work out...then you would continue being good friends....But its good to be with someone you have know for a long time and have the same opinions....and being with your best friend..thats even better...they are the ones that truly understand YOU the most...I say....is continue the frienship..you will KNOW when is the best time to truly tell someone how you feel....what is the worse that can happen...? Him saying No...or a bit of dignity that will build you pride...then pride into confidence...It will only make you stronger and wiser...hope this helped.....and I wasn't trying to push anything on you...it was the truth..if you call God my belief and figment of some guys imagination..I will truly put you in your place....about your Pagan beliefs......! I WILL not be nicer much longer my friend!
  • raves +2   [-] by Beautiful? Insane? Perfect.♥
    Oh, that was very polite. By now I would have been cursing you for all eternity, but I haven't.

    I am not your friend.

    Thank you for your advice. It was somewhat helpful.

    I am truly sorry if I have offended you. I just get very self-righteous and defensive, as everyone does. Don't try and "put me in my place", as I've been in my place for many years now. I've found where I belong.

    Peace
  • raves     [-] by sailordale
    Sad to hear that you think that "God does not exist for you" I have read from your other replies that you think Satan exists, in your Paganism, Wiccan, or what ever occultic religions you may choose to practice!
    You said in your profile that you are only 17,so please do not be so quick to jump to conclusions until you have lived life a little, and had a chance to grow up & wise up! You don't know as much as you think
    you do!
    Enjoy what is left of your childhood while you still can! You will understand what I mean in about 8 or 10 years!!!!
  • raves +2   [-] by Beautiful? Insane? Perfect.♥
    I have never said that I believe Satan exists. Satan is a Christian boogy-man, created to scare little kids into conformity of the Christian religion, and the Christian Satan is a very different one from the one of Satanism. I am Pagan, and I'm very proud of my heritage and religion.
    My profile doesn't say I'm 17. Maybe you should re-read?
    I'm not the one jumping to the conclusion that because I'm Pagan, I worship the Devil =]
    My Nanna, my mum's adoptive mother, is a Christian, and I don't get why every Christian can't be as understanding as her. I've been educated for three years in a Christian school, and Christianity just doesn't cut it for me, I like Paganism, it's my religion, my belief, my faith, and I'd like you to respect that, as I respect your's.
    I enjoy my childhood very much, thank you, please don't tell me how to live my own life.

    Peace
  • raves     [-] by sailordale
    OK, my mistake on the age. I did re-read it. You are only 14.
    Sorry about that one.
    I do respect your own beliefs, your religion, and your faith. And I am not here to "change" anyone's beliefs!
    For the worshiping the Devil, that is one of the deceptions that is fostered by Paganism, Wicca, and all the other occultic religions.
    You are serving Satan, you just don't realize it.....yet!!!!!!
    There is only one satan, and that is NOT a "Christian boogyman"
    You do not seem to know what you are getting into, young lady.
    Please be VERY careful, as you are getting in to some very dangerous stuff, that you probably do not fully know what you REALLY are getting in to!
    Enjoy living your "own" life, however you want to!!!!
    Please remember this one thing.......Actions Have Consequences!!!

    Peace and Blessings to You!
  • raves +1   [-] by Beautiful? Insane? Perfect.♥
    =]
    Okai, glad we have that clear.
    Have you actually researched Paganism, or Wiccanism? My family on my mother's biological side is mostly Pagan, and there is nothing "evil" about it. We don't serve Satan, or the Devil, or whatever you wish to call that stupid creation. Find an adult, who's Pagan (as I don't yet fully understand the religion, I'm still learning), and ask them what Paganism is. Don't talk to your church or whatever about it, because of course they're going to say it's evil. Anything outside of Christ is evil, isn't that right? You've been taught that, and therefore you're rather unaccepting of anything different to what you believe.

    I know exactly what I'm getting myself into, what makes you think otherwise? Don't tell me I'm going to Hell, there is NO such place. I can't be sent to a place I don't believe in.

    Great. Blessings. They're the biggest curses of them all.

    (Oh, please excuse me if I'm being blunt and rude, I'm like that.)
  • raves     [-] by sailordale
    Yes, I like to study different religions of all kinds. I like to come to my own conclusions, apart from any one else's teachings.
    That is another one of satan's lies- to get people to think that there is no hell!!!
    That is why I caution you to please be careful, as you said that you don't yet fully understand the religion, and you are still learning........Satan IS the father of all lies, and he is very good at deception and packaging up his evil ways in very attractive "packages or disguises" ....to fool people into things like false religions and the like!!!

    And yes, I believe the Bible when it says that anything outside of Christ is satanic! Not necessarily outright, but by default, if you are not with Jesus, then you are against Him!!!
    But that is your own choice, and not any body else's, and again, I am not trying to change you or anyone....Your beliefs are up to you!

    can you send some websites, I will be glad to learn more!
    And I can offer some for you if you are interested. And if you are not, I won't.............
    So, I will close with a simple Aloha!
  • raves +1   [-] by Beautiful? Insane? Perfect.♥
    Perhaps you could do as I suggested, and find an adult Pagan who can more fully describe to you what Paganism is about. There is nothing satanic about Paganism, nothing evil. Satan is not real. He was a figment of someone's imagination, just as I believe God is. We are all under one higher power, under many names, even though not every religion's principal's are the same, they are based on the same thing, are they not? There are no false religions. Every religion is real in it's own way.

    I am not against Jesus, He has done nothing against me. But, you're saying, that because I don't believe in all this Bible mumbo jumbo I'm evil, a follower of Satan. That doesn't even make sense. What is there that I could possibly have against your Jesus Christ?

    Oh, you can look for them yourself. I don't mean that in the way of bugger off, I don't wanna do it for you, I just mean you can look up Paganism on Blackle.com, or google.com. Just don't be like some people and go to websites that are clearly biased against other religions.
    Oh, I'm fine, but thank you =] If there is anything I'd like to know, I'll ask =o)

    Peace x