Kalinda
Sun.
Moon.
Earth.
Sky.
Air.
She was many things to me. The first day I met her, at a park, with her younger brother. At the time we were fourteen. I, being the girl I was, decided she would be my best friend, right there and then as we introduced ourselves. As we grew older, and our bodies changed, she began to grow more beautiful. I had plain looks. She got all the attention from the boys, but then again I wasn't very boy-crazy. I was never jealous. She was my best friend, and best friends don't get jealous.
Eighteen, and we had both started looking at each other different...I did grow prettier, but not by much. Kalinda stayed the same, her features only maturing as we got older. I started to look at her like a boy would look at a girl. Or like a girl would see a boy she really likes...it was weird to me, strange, different...and I kept it to myself, too afraid to speak out. No one else was like this...did this mean I was...?
"Kalinda?"
"Sienna?"
"Ah...did you ever break up with that kid? Uhm what was his name...? Scott?" I asked nervously. We were in our twenties now...she was almost twenty-three while I was only a month into being twenty-two.
"Yeah, ages ago. Why?"
"Because a while ago..." I took a deep, calming breath, "A while ago I strated to like you. A lot."
"What?" Kalinda's voice was sharp, making me flinch.
"I uhmm...I think I love you..."
All I heard was her breathing become faster, and then the dial tone. Tears sprang to my eyes...I refused to let them fall. I pulled my phone out of my jeans pocket and messaged her.
'This is weird for me...I didn't know until our last year of high school. Sorry if it's weird for you to think of me as a lesbian, or whatever, Kal, but this is how I am. Talk later xx'
I recieved a message in reply about ten minutes later.
'Sienna, it's not that I don't accept your feelings...but it is weird for me, and very different. I feel...like i have to tell you that I can't return your feelings. I'm not that way. I'm so sorry if I've hurt you, but it's just not right for me...hopefully we can still be friends? I don't want to lose your friendship over this... xx'
Tears welled once again in my eyes, this time I made no effort to stop them flowing freely down my face. A small smile shaped my lips. I could say 'at least she was honest'...she was, but it still hurt. It hurts to know that the person you love so dearly won't love you back. I looked at the charm bracelet on my left wrist. She had the matching one on her right wrist. Together they spelt "LOVE"...but it was hard to love now. I had hoped so much that she would feel the same way, but I was asking for too much obviously. She'd never love me back, and I had to accept that.
A year afterwards, we were still friends...then she got mixed up in the wrong crowd thanks to her stupid boyfriend at the time. She started to do drugs...
One day it all became too much for her, I guess. She never told me her reason, but I guess it's irrelevent now. I was with her, at her bedside, when she died. She had taken some sort of drug that had eaten her stomach, from the inside out, and would eventually kill her. She refused to see anyone but me...I felt so special...
Her last breaths were on me. Her voice was wheezy, and she was losing her battle...
"I'm sorry Sienna...for everything..." she coughed, "I want you to know...I did love you. But now it's too late. This is so cliche, but I did, and still possibly do, love you Sienna. Don't forget there will always be someone to love you..."
I merely stared at her. This couldn't be happening...I grabbed her cold hand and held it tightly in my own. She died, her last breath drawn as I placed a shaky, teary kiss on her cold lips.
Kalinda.
Sun.
Moon.
Earth.
Sky.
Air.
She was many things to me.
And she still is.
Even in death.
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Eh. I was bored. More so than the other one.
x <33
Moon.
Earth.
Sky.
Air.
She was many things to me. The first day I met her, at a park, with her younger brother. At the time we were fourteen. I, being the girl I was, decided she would be my best friend, right there and then as we introduced ourselves. As we grew older, and our bodies changed, she began to grow more beautiful. I had plain looks. She got all the attention from the boys, but then again I wasn't very boy-crazy. I was never jealous. She was my best friend, and best friends don't get jealous.
Eighteen, and we had both started looking at each other different...I did grow prettier, but not by much. Kalinda stayed the same, her features only maturing as we got older. I started to look at her like a boy would look at a girl. Or like a girl would see a boy she really likes...it was weird to me, strange, different...and I kept it to myself, too afraid to speak out. No one else was like this...did this mean I was...?
"Kalinda?"
"Sienna?"
"Ah...did you ever break up with that kid? Uhm what was his name...? Scott?" I asked nervously. We were in our twenties now...she was almost twenty-three while I was only a month into being twenty-two.
"Yeah, ages ago. Why?"
"Because a while ago..." I took a deep, calming breath, "A while ago I strated to like you. A lot."
"What?" Kalinda's voice was sharp, making me flinch.
"I uhmm...I think I love you..."
All I heard was her breathing become faster, and then the dial tone. Tears sprang to my eyes...I refused to let them fall. I pulled my phone out of my jeans pocket and messaged her.
'This is weird for me...I didn't know until our last year of high school. Sorry if it's weird for you to think of me as a lesbian, or whatever, Kal, but this is how I am. Talk later xx'
I recieved a message in reply about ten minutes later.
'Sienna, it's not that I don't accept your feelings...but it is weird for me, and very different. I feel...like i have to tell you that I can't return your feelings. I'm not that way. I'm so sorry if I've hurt you, but it's just not right for me...hopefully we can still be friends? I don't want to lose your friendship over this... xx'
Tears welled once again in my eyes, this time I made no effort to stop them flowing freely down my face. A small smile shaped my lips. I could say 'at least she was honest'...she was, but it still hurt. It hurts to know that the person you love so dearly won't love you back. I looked at the charm bracelet on my left wrist. She had the matching one on her right wrist. Together they spelt "LOVE"...but it was hard to love now. I had hoped so much that she would feel the same way, but I was asking for too much obviously. She'd never love me back, and I had to accept that.
A year afterwards, we were still friends...then she got mixed up in the wrong crowd thanks to her stupid boyfriend at the time. She started to do drugs...
One day it all became too much for her, I guess. She never told me her reason, but I guess it's irrelevent now. I was with her, at her bedside, when she died. She had taken some sort of drug that had eaten her stomach, from the inside out, and would eventually kill her. She refused to see anyone but me...I felt so special...
Her last breaths were on me. Her voice was wheezy, and she was losing her battle...
"I'm sorry Sienna...for everything..." she coughed, "I want you to know...I did love you. But now it's too late. This is so cliche, but I did, and still possibly do, love you Sienna. Don't forget there will always be someone to love you..."
I merely stared at her. This couldn't be happening...I grabbed her cold hand and held it tightly in my own. She died, her last breath drawn as I placed a shaky, teary kiss on her cold lips.
Kalinda.
Sun.
Moon.
Earth.
Sky.
Air.
She was many things to me.
And she still is.
Even in death.
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Eh. I was bored. More so than the other one.
x <33
