A Strong Front for a Delicate Spirit

A strong front for a delicate spirit
Current mood: contemplative
Category: Dreams and the Supernatural

I was one of the many

impressed by the pretense of strength although you were scared

You lived a life for the moment

and on the way you picked up a recipe for disaster

No big deal it could have happened to any of us

You lived and learned

suffered and finally triumphed

and now you hope to make the most of your limited time with us

to save others from your unfortunate fate

good for you, I would have just wasted away..

I sat with my chosen partner reveling in your courage

and the humorous way you recanted all of your pain

You knew how to reach us

for you knew how it was to be young

you haven't forgotten your carefree days

it was my husband who wanted to shake your hand afterwards

I was too intimidated by your worldly past

when I saw your eyes from a few feet away

I sensed the pain and fragility of your time on this planet

you, the image of all that it is beautiful and glamorous

of what is Hollywood and New York and San Francisco

and the grand mansion of the Playboy Bunny Palace..

and it was I of the Kansas farms and the Wyoming terrain that could see..

your light eyes of pain and regret.. were frail.. and fading

but your spirit tells us.."We'll just have to see..!!"



I guess this lil poem needs explanation.. my hubby and I went to see this one gal speak ..her name was Rebekka Armstrong and she was a Playboy Playmate of 1986.. and apparently she got the HIV virus and AIDS quite a few years ago.. I was under the impression that she would be whiny and bitter but this gal gave an excellent talk and blamed no one for her fate but herself.. she was a brave lil spirit who knew how to reach the college crowd with her story of becoming violently ill with the medications thrown at her in a time when the world didn't understand much about AIDS and her drug use and binge drinking party days trying to escape from her pain.. well we went to thank her for her talk and I just felt really sad for her.. because her eyes were so lite and seemed so delicate .. and I thought of how she was doomed because of her illness,, I know it wasn't the right thing to be thinking.. but that's what I thought..