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Well today sucked...

2008-09-05T02:38:03Z

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Me and my boyfriend on 1 & 1/2 years broke up... After we discussed our "situation" I made the decision that we should take a break and then see what happens afterwards. I was in tears because I felt so bad. I loved that boy so much... but I guess you gotta do what you gotta do :'-( This is the second time we've broken up. 1st time was forced (I was underage and my dad didn't approve of our relationship), the 2nd time (this time) it was because of a bad situation. I don't think we are meant to be together...

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2008-09-05T01:26:34Z

Courtney

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What's next...

2008-09-04T22:40:28Z

~~~Meghan Jonas~~~

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Then he stopped walking and said, “I don’t want to let you go either, but for once, I have to.” He said. That broke my heart. Then his hand slipped away, and my fingers tingled for his warm hand. He climbed back onto the bus and sang. “I’m sorry.” Then I said. “I will always forgive my one and only.” Then he smiled. Then disappeared onto the bus. In the back of the bus, I could hear a woman crying. Mrs. Denise. Then Joe slowly, in a zombie like trance, got onto the bus and turned to Madeline and said, “Keep in touch, girlfriend. I love you.” “I love you too.” Madeline whimpered. Then Joe disapperared into the bus, and I took Madeline’s arm and put it on mine. “I think I am all cried out.” I said. “I am too.” She whispered. The doors didn’t close. Kevin walked out, holding something in his hands. He looked at both of us and said, “Hold out your right hands.” Madeline and I raised our shaky right arms. Then he told us, “Nick and Joe can’t wait. But true love does.” as he slid to purity rings on our right ring fingers. Then he told us to, “Just wait, be safe, never forget.” And slipped quietly back onto the bus. Then the doors closed. The high pitched noise rang in my ears, but I couldn’t hear it. The bus slowly took off. Nick and Joe were pressed against the window. Madeline and I stood there, arms connected, no tears left, waving to the one thing that we wanted not to happen. Once the bus was out of our sight, we walked slowly and shakily to my mom’s car. I opened up the car door to find something out of the ordinary. ***ok. theres not much left, so i will post what i have and then ill get back to it. this isn't the end so i don't wanna leave my girls hanging, but i will try to make it as interesting as i can...

She said.....

2008-09-04T22:31:21Z

~~~Meghan Jonas~~~

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I shook my head. “N…No.” I whispered out through tears. His eyes widened at my answer. And his hands started to tremble. “N…Nick. I won’t…marry you…but…I…I will love…you…f…for…as…long…as…I wear the…ring.” I managed to get out. He relaxed. “Is that a promise?” he whispered. Then he chuckled. All I could do was nod. I could still see the hurt on his face, but yet he was a little triumphant. I thought he would be happy that I at least took the ring. But I thought that this would at least make his trip more pleasureable. He slid the ring on my hand. Where it would stay, for him, forever. Then he stood up, still holding my hand, then he kissed the ring. Then he kissed my lips, and smiled in between. When he left me, he gave me the best hug that I have ever had before. And I wouldn’t get another one. He started to twirl me around the slightest bit, his arms wrapped around my waist. He pushed me closer to him and I couldn’t help but just look up at him. He looked down at me, then he gently kissed my nose. I saw over my shoulder to see Madeline and Joe walked up behind us, shoulder to shoulder. Madeline’s eyes were bloodshot and she was stumbling a little bit. Joe’s eyes were the same as Madeline’s. They came up to us and and they took us into a bug group hug. Nick’s head has leaning next to mine. That’s when the tears started falling. But what I didn’t realize is that they were mine. Nick’s head came off mine and he looked at me head on. “Now what?” he said in a sad tone. “I don’t…know. I…it’s just…h…hard.” I choked out. “Well when I get back I promise that I will make it much more easier for you.” he said as he kissed my forhead. I grabbed his head and tried to kiss him as hard as I could, but he pushed me away. “Easy, Meghan, easy. Take it slow.” He said. then he leaned into me and kissed me gently, then he made it harder for me to catch up. He split my lips apart, then he brushed his tongue over my lip once more. Then his hands connected with my neck, and he kissed me with perpendicular force, almost knocking me off my feet. I was to the point that I was bent backwards and he was holding my head up. Then he suddenly left me, bringing me back up to where we were totally straight. “I…love…you.” he said with pauses in between. “Me too.” I squeaked as my voice cracked. He started to back away, slowly disconnecting our interteiwined fingers. I didn’t want to let go. So I followed him. ***this next part is the part i didn't want to type, but who wants to know?*****

The bus stopped because....

2008-09-04T22:13:52Z

~~~Meghan Jonas~~~

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The miracle………. Joe was out first, running with all his might to cuddle Madeline into his arms. I could see the heartbreak on his face as he kissed her gently to tell her he was there. But Joe wasn’t the only one out the bus. Nick walked slowly out the bus, holding the ring between both hands, staring at it. My eyes widened and I bit my lip. His chest slowly receded as he took deep breaths. I started breathing quicker, watching his every movement. He reached me then finally looked up. “No.” I gasped quietly. I thought he wouldn’t find it. But he did. I started to back away from him a little, then he grabbed my left hand. Then he spoke. “There was this one thing that I always wanted to truly know. And this is what it led to.” Then he got down on one knee. Tears welled up in my eyes. His hand was still on mine. “Meghan. I know that we are young, but I want to be with you for the longest time. I’ve never wanted anything more than to make you happy. Will you...…marry me?” he stuttered. *******AAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!! I LOVE IT!!!!!! WHO WANT"S TO KNOW WHAT SHE SAID!!

Who's voice was it?

2008-09-04T22:03:04Z

~~~Meghan Jonas~~~

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The Broken Moment………. “Alright, boys, time to go.” He said. Nick’s lips froze, then impishly left me craving more. His hand locked with mine. Big Rob looked down at me and smiled. Then he wiped the remaining tears from my eyes. “He’s not going to stop talking about you.” He said to me. Nick squeezed my hand. I couldn’t help but smile at him and Big Rob. I walked to the shimmering bus, still holding onto Nick’s hand. I walked behind everyone slowly, dreading the moment that was brought to me by every passing second. Then the doors opened up. Mrs. Denise walked out, tissues in one hand, the other locked onto Mr. Kevin. She walked straight up to me, and said, “Meghan, Nick loves you very much, don’t forget that. And he will miss you terribley. I am sorry about the other night. I haven’t dealt with that much love before. Will you forgive me?” She sniffed. “Of course Mrs. Denise.” I said as she grabbed me and hugged me. I whispered in her ear, “Thanks for giving me the chance to date your son.” Then she whispered back, “Your truly welcome. He really loves you, I think he will not be able to stop talking about you the whole trip.” She released me from her grip, put a hand on my shoulder and said, “Call us when you can.” And I replied, “Of course.” And nodded. Next was Kevin. He nodded, smiled, kissed me on the cheek, and hugged me. Next was Frankie. I bent down to his level and said, “Take care of your brothers for me ok?” “Sure thing!” was his reply. I laughed and ruffled his hair. Next was no one. Joe was to busy making out with Madeline. Then a tear hit the ground. I saw Joe take a hand away from Madeline’s face to wipe his eye. I walked up to him and put my arms around both Madeline and Joe. Joe squeezed my back playfully as to say ‘thanks’. Then the tears finally stopped and Joe told Madeline, “See ya, girlfriend.” And winked at her. She giggled. Then he hugged her waist so tight. She stretched up to kiss him one last time. Then they held hands to walk to the tour bus together. Frankie was on first. Then the Jonas parents, then Kevin, Joe was on, slowly letting go of Madeline’s fingers. Then she waved. Last was Nick. And it was like he refused to go. His feet shuffled slowly to the steps, dragging me along. He finally made it to the steps and said, “Don’t forget to call me.” “Don’t forget to think of me.” I replied. “That’s going to be hard.” He said. “Exactly.” He said as he look pleadingly into my eyes, then mesmerized me with another kiss. Then he climbed onto that bus, looked back, then dissappeard. The bus roared to life. Then drove away. Madeline ran after it as fast as she could to catch up to Joe. I could see a hand pressed whitely against the black window. Madeline was screaming Joe’s name the whole time. Then she was out of breath and couldn’t run anymore. She fell to her knees and was crying hard, her chest heaving up and down. I ran after her and fell down to her, and took her into my arms. Then it happened. An ear splitting screech filled my ears and made me flinch. My head snapped up at the noise. But couldn’t find anything. Then ear-peircing noise stopped. So did the bus. ***oooohhhh... suspensful isn't it...

More of my favorite part!!

2008-09-04T21:48:12Z

~~~Meghan Jonas~~~

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“Meghan, promise me something?” he asked. “Anything for my love.” I said. “Don’t forget me.” He said. I closed my eyes, sighed, but before I could open my eyes, he kissed me with urgency. When he was done, I could feel his lips run down my shoulder down the my hand that he picked up and kissed my finger tips. Thank goodness that it wasn’t my left hand. I opened my eyes and saw him sniffle. I knew what was coming. I was all cried out. He dropped my hand. “Nick, don’t.” was all I could manage to say before he started to tremble again. Tears fell down his face once more and he put me down instantly. He backed away from me, then turned and ran to the box he sat on when I found him. He sat down and started to bawl more than any boy I have ever seen before. I ran towards him, my read heels clicking. He heard me coming, so he turned around. I ran to him, stopped, and wondered if he needed the moment. So I let him be. Instead I went to see Kevin. “Bye Kevin.” I said through stifling tears. “Meghan.” Was all he said. He took me into him and hugged me hard, then spoke to me. “Nick will be back for you sooner than you think.” I stepped back from him and he shrugged and said, “Unconditional love!” my tears started to fade and I laughed. “Don’t worry. Just because he doesn’t call you or text you in 3:00 in the morning doesn’t mean you’ll be on his mind every day.” Was all he said. I smiled at that. “Bye Meghan.” He said, waving. I smiled again, and turned around to find Nick Jonas staring me right in the face. Speechless………. His eyes were redder than before and his breathing was speeding. His dark chocolate eyes seemed to turn black. “All cried out?” I asked, opening my arms. A simple nod and shuffling later, he cradled me gently. The last quivering breath passed and I whispered into his ear, “I like emotional men.” He laughed at that one. Seconds later we were kissing each other like we would never let go. Like he would stay there forever. Then a deep husky voice broke the moment. *** WHO IS IT? DUH DUH DUH!!! WHO WANTS TO KNOW***

More of my favorite part!!

2008-09-04T21:48:11Z

~~~Meghan Jonas~~~

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This is now my alltime favorite part!

2008-09-04T21:20:30Z

~~~Meghan Jonas~~~

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The Back of House of Blues........ We drove to the back of the House of Blues, tears already running down my cheeks. Kevin was helping Big Rob pack up the bus, Joe was sitting on the ground, back against the bus, his head hidden in his knees. I tried to find Nick. But was unsuccessful. Big Rob moved out the way and then I saw him. Sitting on a box, cradling his face, not moving. His brilliantly shaped curls were shining bright in the sunshine. Right when my Mom put the car in park, I flung the door open and ran to where Nick was, yelling his name the whole time. His head snapped up, tears falling. He smiled a little bit, stood up, opened his arms wide to catch me. I flew into his arms, hearing his jagged gasps. My crying was as hard as my grip was on his shirt. I moved away from his embrace to kiss his tears away. His trembling lips made their way to mine and his kiss was slow, but demanding. Then he started shaking he was crying so hard. He suddenly put me down, trembling, and he looked at the ground, his curls shaking in the sun, and covered his face, glistening water falling from his face, his hands tightened in fists. I made my way around his waist to hug him. He did the same, his arms locked around me, then pushed me against him. This was the moment I didn’t want to do. I had to put the ring back. I slipped it off my finger. Then gently put it in his pocket. I flinched at his face of horror if he ever found it. But a trembling voice appeared in my ear. “This… is… t…the…har…hardest…thing…e…ever.” He said between sobs. “Y…you… don’t…e…even…kn…know.” I replied as I squeezed him as hard as I could. He held his breath as he tried to slow his tears, but failed, it seemed to come down harder than ever. I heard a large cry from behind me. Madeline. I knew it was going to be hard for her because they only went out last night. But I needed to be with Nick. I receded from his chest to see his face. His eyes were pink, nose red, and his body was shaking with every breath he took. He looked at me, smirked, and then laughed. “W…what’s… so…so…funny?” I asked. “Your makeup is all smuded.” He said as the last tear fell from his face. Both hands cradled my face as his thunbs wiped away the final remains of a terrible tear shedding. “Kiss me.” I whispered. His hands brought my face to his as we kissed each other like we were never ever going to see each other forever. But that’s its what it felt like. It started off gentle, emerged into forceful, then demanding. My back bend backwards as he over looked me, his lips crushing mine. His lips departed way to soon. And I wasn’t done. His hands were around me locked like they were welded there. I shook my head, and he replied, “What?” “You stopped kissing me to soon.” I said as I leaned to kiss him some more. I think he smiled again, so I did it too. Then I managed to get my tongue to touch his lip. Then he lifted me up like the night before. This time he lifted me up so I was looking down at him. I left his lips and stared at him and said, “Did I ever tell you how much I love you?” cocking my head. “Once or twice.” He said as he smiled even harder. And I knew exactly why. He thought he sussccesfully gave me the ring, but he didn’t know that its not on me anymore. He slowly slid my body down until I was eyelevel with him. ***who likes this!! i do!! this paragrapgh is sooooo long but so worth reading. there is more to this paragraph so keep in touch!!!

i wrote a LOT MORE!!!!

2008-09-04T20:58:44Z

~~~Meghan Jonas~~~

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The locker hall………. “Meghan. Give it to me straight. Why did you gasp?” Madeline asked me, shaking me. “MEGHAN!” she yelled. I was brought to reality by two hands shaking my face. “What.” I said flatly. “What’s going on.” She demanded, the hands leaving my face. I slumped against my locker, sliding to the floor. “Meghan!” Madeline gasped as she flew to the ground right in front of me. “I think…I’m…” I couldn’t finish. Madeline gasped again. “Meghan, you can’t be.” She said with more hysteria I have ever heard in my life. “I am...” I started again as I unzipped my Vera Bradley bag, picked up the ring and held it out without looking at it. “Engaged.” I finally finished. I heard her sigh. “Meghan, you scared me.” she said as she sat at my side. “I thought you were pregnant.” She said. My head snapped toward. “What?” I snapped. She flinched. “Never mind.” She said, turning her attention to the ring. “This is beautiful, Meghan.” She said. “I don’t want it.” I said sadly, dropping my head in my knees. “Why not?” she asked, taking my hand and putting the ring in my hand. “Because.” Was all I said. I put the ring back in my purse. “That’s not a good reason.” She said. “It is to me. I don’t want to have a boyfriend that thinks that we can get married at a young age! I told him that I would… break up with him. And this counts.” I said through my mumbling words. “Meghan. Don’t give up the one thing you love the most. Do you want to lose him?” she asked. “No.” I mumbled. “What?” she asked like she didn’t hear it. “No!” I practically yelled. “That’s what I thought. So just give it back to him today, and make sure he doesn’t notice. I’d be like it never happened.” She whispered. I thought to myself of the heartbreak that it would cause him to not see me wear it. The pain in me to know he wants me that bad. “Meghan. You don’t have to agree to everything. Even engagement. Just tell him why not. For one, you’ re to young. Two, you told him not to do it. And three, you don’t want to be with a guy that thinks a relationship is about marriage. He’s got to know, Meghan.” She said. “I know. But he loves me. A lot. I do too. But he’s got to have some rules.” I said. “That’s right.” She said with a nod. I made up my mind. Nick can have me, but not forever. He’s got to have some boundaries. So I got up from the floor and walked to my next class to endure the day, and endure the last goodbyes yet to come. The End of school………. I stood at the car pull line. Knees wobbling, hands shaking, tears forming. This was the moment I never wanted to happen. I saw my mom’s car and my breath caught. The minutes were passing until my love was gone. I wish she came later, but then Nick would be gone. So Madeline and I walked with linked arms and shaking hands as we knew what was ahead of us. ****omj, the next part is really graphic and feels real, but its not in a bad way. its so good*** livvz<3 and all my besties i gotta know how much u want the next part!