http://www.sodahead.com/blogs/feeds/user/87591/atom/ http://www.sodahead.com/images/SodaheadBlacklogo_small.gif TackyMutant's Blog @ SodaHead.com Copyright © 2007 SodaHead.com All Rights Reserved 2008-07-15T00:58:32Z TackyMutant http://www.sodahead.com/blog/9498 <div align="left"><a href="http://www.sodahead.com/user/profile/87591/"> <img src="http://images.sodahead.com/images/profiles/0/0/0/0/8/7/5/9/1/profiles_thself_4456_323962_media_small.jpeg" align="middle" border="0" alt="TackyMutant"/> <small>TackyMutant</small></a> </div> <div><a href="http://www.sodahead.com/blog/9498/"></a> <b>+2 raves</b> </div> Ive faced a few deaths in my short life time. Each one was significant at that time and painful but being that I was young; it made me niave and innocent to every passing. I wasn&#39;t quite prepared to face this passing though. On Wednesday the 2nd of July my Grandmother died suddenly. That day will be forever ingrained into my mind, mostly because I told her I&#39;d see her later (before I went to work) and then within two hours she was gone. I knew she wouldn&#39;t live forever but I never expected her to pass so suddenly or so quickly. Our relationship was turbulent but I loved her and I know in her own way she loved me. I think I&#39;ve been through the worse part of this grieving period... but even though each day goes on and I go back to reality. I can&#39;t help but find aspects in everyday life that remind me that someone who played a huge role in my life is now gone forever. No more late night chats or laughing while she made fun of the music I listened too (and band names). No more early morning moans or discussing gigs and venues that I&#39;ve been too. No more war stories or family tales. No more anything. She was cremated today and I chose not to attend the service, We&#39;re hoping to have her ashes scattered up North along with my Grandfathers, I think that will be better way to say Goodbye. Words can&#39;t describe how painful this lose truly is. I do hope she is in a better place. Nobody teaches you the art of letting go. I know that I have to let go, she lived her life and died the way she wanted too. I couldn&#39;t ask for more. apart from wishing she wasn&#39;t gone. RIP Jenny, your greatly missed. Txxx <A href="http://beyond1123.files.wordpress.com/2008/02/letting_go_by_fallinginpanic.jpg" target="_blank" rel="nofollow"><img src="http://beyond1123.files.wordpress.com/2008/02/letting_go_by_fallinginpanic.jpg" title="letting lived life died moreapart rip jenny greatly missed txxx" height="600" width="426" orig_size="600x845" alt="letting lived life died moreapart rip jenny greatly missed txxx"/></A> (I hope this all makes sense...) 2008-07-15T00:58:32Z TackyMutant http://www.sodahead.com/blog/6042 <div align="left"><a href="http://www.sodahead.com/user/profile/87591/"> <img src="http://images.sodahead.com/images/profiles/0/0/0/0/8/7/5/9/1/profiles_thself_4456_323962_media_small.jpeg" align="middle" border="0" alt="TackyMutant"/> <small>TackyMutant</small></a> </div> <div><a href="http://www.sodahead.com/blog/6042/"></a> <b>0 raves</b> </div> I&#39;m off to enjoy my 20th. I can&#39;t believe I&#39;ve reached my 20&#39;s. Bring it on. Hope everyone is having as good a day as me. Tx 2008-05-04T08:51:03Z TackyMutant http://www.sodahead.com/blog/3449 <div align="left"><a href="http://www.sodahead.com/user/profile/87591/"> <img src="http://images.sodahead.com/images/profiles/0/0/0/0/8/7/5/9/1/profiles_thself_4456_323962_media_small.jpeg" align="middle" border="0" alt="TackyMutant"/> <small>TackyMutant</small></a> </div> <div><a href="http://www.sodahead.com/blog/3449/"></a> <b>0 raves</b> </div> &quot;I wish it could just be simple, like a retro pop song, &quot;I want you to want me.&quot; Boom. End of story.....&quot; 2008-03-07T21:10:53Z TackyMutant