Wooo I am back home woo :) I can honestly say thank F*ck for that hahaha My mum never stayed as long as I thought she was gonna and Im glad to,she starts her new job sooner so she cant afford to travel back n fourth to my grans so we came home.But there still fighting but Im just glad to get a bloody shower haha I absolutely hate baths,My gran only has a bath and it sucks,But I will miss staying with her,she's amazing my gran :) especially at cooking my word I thought I was in heaven lol cooked meals every night,I have had like that,never hehe.My mum did not inherit that gift thats for sure hahaha

hey there just letting my friends know that im taking a break from sodahead for awhile.
for those who read my last blog entry,will know my situtation,Im going away with my mum for a much needed vacation.(to my grans would you believe haha) things are still iffy between my parents (but for now they aren't splitting up) just taking a a break from each other.

I am in a state of panic and so is my little brother.
Last night me and my mum were sitting in the living room watching a film when all of a sudden she tells me she's thinking of leaving my stepdad.(blank gobbed smacked face) I turn around and look at her to think she is kidding.But she wasn't,I was actually speechless for once (I didnt know what to say) just said why do you want to leave him and she just said she has had enough of his sh*t.

I new my mum and stepdads relationship wasnt exactly a bed of roses,but I didnt realise it was this bad,I have on several occasions yelled at my stepdad to get his ass in gear when it comes to my mum,he can be quite a selfish man at times and possesive,I had on a few times told him he is so damn lucky to have my mum but the way you treat her is gotta stop,but I guess it did no good.

My mum went to bed early last night and my stepdad was staying over night at the fishery (he helps out sometimes) he didnt get kicked out or anything in fact he has no idea mum feels this way.

But I told my little brother when he got back late last night,he wasnt shocked as me he just said well it was a long time coming,but now we are both fearing what the hells gonna happen and if they do split where the hell they are gonna live.If they did split I could gurantee my mum would go to my grans,probaly get a flat near her,but me and my wee brother dont want to move there and I cant see neither of the two of us living with my stepdad,even though that is my little brothers dad.

It's just one thing after another this year,the once steady family I thought we had seems very unstable.Im still in bloody shock and I havent got a bloody clue what to do.Help

If your at least a bit interested in why my mood is so up and down lately this is why,Im confused to my limit,heart broken and lonely angry,frustrated,hurt,pushed to my limit.

I split up with my ex four months ago,we had been together for 3 years.I was deeply in love with him and we lived together for 3 years.But it was never a happy situation,our relationship was fine,but his mother was slowly dividing us,she interefered at every chance she got.She was a very over powering woman,very protective of her son (and I mean that in a not normal way).She made the descions in his life really.(there's is way more confusing reasons about her and our living circumstances which is too personal for me to share.

I just couldnt take it anymore that women was suffocating me,My mum actually talked with me many times living there that she was worried about me because I was becoming depressed and jepordasing my college,(my mum hated the woman) as she could see what she was doing to the relationship.my mum suggested moving back home many times (which infuriated me because she wanted me to leave the man I love)but she had a point,If I stayed there I was at the point of losing myself.

I finally couldnt bare it any more and I told my ex I might have too move back home because I can no longer put up with his mother interefering in every angle of our life (I couldnt breathe) instead of telling his mum maybe too back off or even discuss it with her,he said if you move back home were over then he got all defensive about his mum.I couldnt believe it he choose his mum over me.

He wasnt even willing to travel 5mins up the road to my mums house to come and see me,we could still have a relationship living apart (I mean 5mins is nothing) I moved out because he wasnt even gonna speak to his mum.I never ever wanted to break up with him just move house.
But He basicially broke up with me over his mum.(you have no idea how much that hurts) 3 bloodly years meant absolutely nothing to him.

I think I have went over every emotion this past four months,but he is now playing mind games with me like phoning me all the time,playing hot and cold,making me think we have a chance getting back together then blowing me off at the last minute,well we are still friends,coz out of all of it we did have a great realtionship and we never used to fight (just about his mother) so I know we had a good freindship.we still go to movies etc because we were both movie nuts especially about comic films (plus our interests are the same) and like none of my friends will go to see the hulk or batman even)so that part is good

I am trying to get over him and remain freinds but it's hard as I still love him and I think I will always have that love for him,but everytime I look at him all I feel is anger.

right now im screwed up emotionally so If I come across as aloof well thats what up with me.Im totally confused and emtionally dead right now.Fed up with love
Im my own worse enemy :(

Im all alone in my haunted freaking house :( Im off today and as im typing this there is banging noises coming from upstairs (it is freally scary) Nobody likes styaing in this house alone (it freaks my mum and that out) I keep hearing talking too :( my cats are acting weird and hissing etc they are very edgy (Im really scared) :( least the computer down stairs (I have been up to check the noise but I got freaked out coz I felt like someone was watching me) does anyone else have this problem???? freaking heck the banging is so loud

Im in a totally crap mood I have just had to much bad news today.I just found out my uncle's cancer is back and he need to go for chemo right away :( plus my stepdad is really ill at the moment he needs to go to hospital coz the hole left side of his body is numb.
This day couldnt be any worse :(
someone plz cheer me up to take my mind off it.

Just wondering I have been listening to there songs again as I loved them when I was younger :) here's my two favourite songs................ just incase you didnt no who they were they split up(ages ago)

Break and shake me.
Truly madly deeply do

I was just bored lol and was on youtube :)

damn im so bored,Im trying to right this report for college and it's taken forever because I have no idea what to right, my brain has gone all mush.Anyone no anything about the effects of global warming on the fashion and texile industry.lol (wtf) it's gonna be a lot of pish when im done and it's for a presentation.Damn it why wasnt I born clever.anywho if your reading this you must be as bored as I am lol

This is for Lucifers Angel I thought this might cheer you up :)
Lets appreciate the man that is Lauri :)
what a wonderful man he is too,The lead singer of the wonderful band The Rasmus ,with his fantastic ruggid voice,extremly funny personality,and dont forgot those amazing sexy good looks.
Come on lets Appreciate this sexy Finnish man :)

yum would like to be that bottle

This is for marked for life LOL he wanted to see pictures ,well maybe not this kind he had in mind more of the models I think
But any who this year we were given to briefs to choose from and this year it was
Illusions

and
COAST

- Traditional Stripes and Polka Dots
- Nostalgic European Coastal Towns
- Stylish Cool
- Classic Ingredients
- Effortless Chic
- Vintage Florals
- Denim and Chambray
A fresh take on nautical finds inspiration in the nostalgia of European coastal towns. Stylish simplicity with classic polka dots and stripes as a starting point. Tone down frivolity with traditional elements for a graceful polished look. Chambray and denim lend a relaxed, functional feel. Use overprint or fresh white embroidery, pair with pretty vintage florals and retro-abstract print. Perk up the expected red, white and blue with a splash of yellow or delicious apple green.

Colors: French navy, aqua and marine blue take a hit of signal red, sunshine and fresh apple green.

This year I decided to do Illusions,1940's silhouette.
Here's some of my designs and artwork etc :) be nice lol