Not paintings but two pencil drawings I did at the weekend,I figured while I am waiting for my paintings to dry I could be sketching in the mean time,so here two pictures I drew (which my aunt bought me postcards of) they know me too well lol

this is a rough sketch of a red deer stag (which I am going to be painting doing on a canvas for my aunt)
The 2nd is my fav actually I totally love birds of prey and this is a golden eagle :) which I am currently doing on a canvas but the feather detail my oh my will take me ages lol


just thought I'd share my pencil work also (I feel though I am majorly rusty with pencil work (so be kind)

Aaaaaa I am losing count I have started so many paintings I dont know what I am doing anymore,Okays this picture has took me longer to do with all the detail etc but let me know what you think again please coz all feedback helps.I am obsessed with japanese and chinese culture so here is a geisha girl I painted :)

Done in acrylics (I have chosen something of colour for a change lol) instead of darks hehe

I had to take picture of it coz it's on a canvas (But have lost loads of detail yet again)

This picture is going up for sale in exhibit,25% of the sale goes to charity (which I am all for) and I get to keep the rest so that is good :)
But I have the tricky part of making up a price,I dont even no where to start eeeeeep

haha suddenly avril lavigne springs to mind,anyways I am writing this just for sheer fact I am bored and it is better to let out the stuff thats stuck in your head.

Winter is here which happens to be my favourite time of the year :)
I love watching the leaves fall off the trees and walking through them,I love wrappping up in extra layers,I love wearing my hats n gloves,going to bed all cozy snuggling into the duvet and never wanting to get out of it,I love halloween time,kids tricker treating,peeps dressing up,all the decorations,I love bonfire night,all the fireworks lighting up the sky :) My birthday is this year, I am not looking forward to it merily for the fact I dont want to get older lol then my grans and friends bdays hopefully partying good style :) then the dreaded christmas aaaaaa.I love having the holiday to spend time way my family :)

The only problem I have is those damn cold nights make my health ten times worse,my muscles,bones and joints seem to be more aggraviated by the cold and rain,My muscle movements slow down and I seem to have lack of energy,the little energy I do have the cold just eats it.I am tired more quickly due to this and therefore I am very low mood all day everyday,which sucks, seriously I find it hard to find the joy at this time now (which saddens me) coz I love it so.

I am not on a feel bad mood tonight only more just reflecting on how good this time of year is I just wish I could be more energetic to appreciate it all :)

I am in silly mood tonight peeps lol I expect noone to read this hahaha I just need it out my head,so I can think abouts other stuff.

Alright this is my 2nd painting I have just finished :) and you may be suprised to know it's another crow lol :) hehe (I like my crows)

I started this picture a while back and me going down to stay at my grans every weekend means I am getting some peace and quiet to paint so this is why I am managing to get them finished so woo hoo to that.

I have a huge interest in birds so the only pictures at the moment you will see from me will be of birds lol,but my canvas however lol different story but they will take some time as I like to put in lots of detail.

so ok some of you have asked me to keep posting my artwork on here so here is my 2nd picture (let me know what you think of this one)

Hello peeps just showing off my new painting,Let me know what you think.please :)

I have just finished my 1st painting woo hoo it's signed and everything and already it might have a new home lol ( a few people want to buy it already but I dont know I dont want to give it up lol ) im too proud of it plus I really like crows way too much.(who knows)

but my next project is a big canvas with a crow on it lol
(all gothic like this one) just in time for halloween :) me thinks
Anyways here's a scan of my painting,I couldnt fit it all in.

Wooo I am back home woo :) I can honestly say thank F*ck for that hahaha My mum never stayed as long as I thought she was gonna and Im glad to,she starts her new job sooner so she cant afford to travel back n fourth to my grans so we came home.But there still fighting but Im just glad to get a bloody shower haha I absolutely hate baths,My gran only has a bath and it sucks,But I will miss staying with her,she's amazing my gran :) especially at cooking my word I thought I was in heaven lol cooked meals every night,I have had like that,never hehe.My mum did not inherit that gift thats for sure hahaha

hey there just letting my friends know that im taking a break from sodahead for awhile.
for those who read my last blog entry,will know my situtation,Im going away with my mum for a much needed vacation.(to my grans would you believe haha) things are still iffy between my parents (but for now they aren't splitting up) just taking a a break from each other.

I am in a state of panic and so is my little brother.
Last night me and my mum were sitting in the living room watching a film when all of a sudden she tells me she's thinking of leaving my stepdad.(blank gobbed smacked face) I turn around and look at her to think she is kidding.But she wasn't,I was actually speechless for once (I didnt know what to say) just said why do you want to leave him and she just said she has had enough of his sh*t.

I new my mum and stepdads relationship wasnt exactly a bed of roses,but I didnt realise it was this bad,I have on several occasions yelled at my stepdad to get his ass in gear when it comes to my mum,he can be quite a selfish man at times and possesive,I had on a few times told him he is so damn lucky to have my mum but the way you treat her is gotta stop,but I guess it did no good.

My mum went to bed early last night and my stepdad was staying over night at the fishery (he helps out sometimes) he didnt get kicked out or anything in fact he has no idea mum feels this way.

But I told my little brother when he got back late last night,he wasnt shocked as me he just said well it was a long time coming,but now we are both fearing what the hells gonna happen and if they do split where the hell they are gonna live.If they did split I could gurantee my mum would go to my grans,probaly get a flat near her,but me and my wee brother dont want to move there and I cant see neither of the two of us living with my stepdad,even though that is my little brothers dad.

It's just one thing after another this year,the once steady family I thought we had seems very unstable.Im still in bloody shock and I havent got a bloody clue what to do.Help

If your at least a bit interested in why my mood is so up and down lately this is why,Im confused to my limit,heart broken and lonely angry,frustrated,hurt,pushed to my limit.

I split up with my ex four months ago,we had been together for 3 years.I was deeply in love with him and we lived together for 3 years.But it was never a happy situation,our relationship was fine,but his mother was slowly dividing us,she interefered at every chance she got.She was a very over powering woman,very protective of her son (and I mean that in a not normal way).She made the descions in his life really.(there's is way more confusing reasons about her and our living circumstances which is too personal for me to share.

I just couldnt take it anymore that women was suffocating me,My mum actually talked with me many times living there that she was worried about me because I was becoming depressed and jepordasing my college,(my mum hated the woman) as she could see what she was doing to the relationship.my mum suggested moving back home many times (which infuriated me because she wanted me to leave the man I love)but she had a point,If I stayed there I was at the point of losing myself.

I finally couldnt bare it any more and I told my ex I might have too move back home because I can no longer put up with his mother interefering in every angle of our life (I couldnt breathe) instead of telling his mum maybe too back off or even discuss it with her,he said if you move back home were over then he got all defensive about his mum.I couldnt believe it he choose his mum over me.

He wasnt even willing to travel 5mins up the road to my mums house to come and see me,we could still have a relationship living apart (I mean 5mins is nothing) I moved out because he wasnt even gonna speak to his mum.I never ever wanted to break up with him just move house.
But He basicially broke up with me over his mum.(you have no idea how much that hurts) 3 bloodly years meant absolutely nothing to him.

I think I have went over every emotion this past four months,but he is now playing mind games with me like phoning me all the time,playing hot and cold,making me think we have a chance getting back together then blowing me off at the last minute,well we are still friends,coz out of all of it we did have a great realtionship and we never used to fight (just about his mother) so I know we had a good freindship.we still go to movies etc because we were both movie nuts especially about comic films (plus our interests are the same) and like none of my friends will go to see the hulk or batman even)so that part is good

I am trying to get over him and remain freinds but it's hard as I still love him and I think I will always have that love for him,but everytime I look at him all I feel is anger.

right now im screwed up emotionally so If I come across as aloof well thats what up with me.Im totally confused and emtionally dead right now.Fed up with love
Im my own worse enemy :(

Im all alone in my haunted freaking house :( Im off today and as im typing this there is banging noises coming from upstairs (it is freally scary) Nobody likes styaing in this house alone (it freaks my mum and that out) I keep hearing talking too :( my cats are acting weird and hissing etc they are very edgy (Im really scared) :( least the computer down stairs (I have been up to check the noise but I got freaked out coz I felt like someone was watching me) does anyone else have this problem???? freaking heck the banging is so loud