My spirit lies adrift
in the cruel confines of a gilded cage
free to only dream wistfully
or to bash my head in rage
I want to run loose and feel the wild breeze
I want to see the forbidden sight
that only the untamed soul sees
I yearned to come this
but now that I have it I no longer know
if it was worth giving up my freedoms
for this once unattainable goal
The maddened soul wants to return to the unfettered track
I want all those making unfair judgments
to get off my formerly corrupted back
give me some slack
you daunted pig headed juries of the civilized world
who lives life from point A to B
give it up.. and keep your questioning eyes under those heavy brows so furled
I will be the me I wish to be.. and there is nothing else I want to be
you will have to either take it or leave it..
but there's no coming back ..if it's understanding of the me you lack
you might find me off track... but I doubt you will find
that there will be a spirit as inspired and natural
as in this one.. it's precious and one of a kind

Your eyes have darkened my love
to the cold dark place that makes you low
I will protect your heart my love
until the warm kind rays of sunshine
reclaim your saddened soul

You spirits need nestling my love
come lay by my side
I will protect your mind my love
until I am assured you will be ok

Your arms seem lost and limp
let me drape you with my own
I will protect your body my love
My embrace will be your home

You may drip of charm
and the finer things of life
yet you're so called style has no claim on me
I won't be your Stepford Wife

You may try to whisper sweet falsehoods
and soothe my passionate fire
You can't tempt with your plastic desire
I won't be your Stepford Wife

So go ahead shower me with gold and trinkets
take me the Greece or Rome
buy me the most posh of million dollar homes
but I won't be your Stepford Wife

I may clean or cook that well
or follow that crappy Martha Stewart bull
I won't sell my soul to your conformist hell
I won't be your Stepford Wife

One thing you will get from me is the love of a Tigress
protecting it's cubs within a warm lair
a free spirit with leaves and grass in my hair
still I won't be your Stepford Wife

I fail to find myself impressed
by the impressions you lay out before me
I won't feel apologetic or second guess
or change my ways to make you adore me

I fail to wish to participate in the games you enjoy
I rather sit this one out.. if that's alright with you
you prove yourself to be a mere emotionless boy
I won't even acknowledge or fight with you

I will rather stand proud than erect a pedestal
on which you can scoff and look down on me
I think in the long run your influence and charm are minuscule
I lost nothing ..when you think you took it all away from me

Sit down now.. and think you own the world
when it's only a vacant lot inside your own mind
I think you are beyond hope to ever realize
you are a mere pimple on human kind

POP!!

I limply rest my tired head
on the sweet safe crevice of your shoulder and neck..
indulging in a breath drenched of your musky essence
forgetting the world we left behind
our fingers are now intertwined..
and the carnal forbidden heat overtaking..
but this is my utmost convalescence
of my heart that has been for so long breaking
I allow you to press me full into that unforgiving wall
and mesh your searing lips with my fully aware flesh
the moment causing my fingers to tangle in with tufts of hair
as you lift my frame with the strength of your desire
I drape you securely with legs and arms
unarmed... that is the me you find yourself with now
can you take this unstripped raw being darling
that has so willingly taken on the challenge of you
well you will just have to make do baby
I think you will be alright.. promise I wouldn't put myself out there
if I didn't know if you were man enough to take it
to take me.. I know you want to now is your time

I am just concerned this may have some themes not appropriate for you kids.. so skip this one ok?

I have been your Human Blanket...
wrapped tight while you have shivered in the night
you pulled me over tighter to cover those icy limbs
but you were happy and that was alright

I have been you Human Shadow
I followed you from point A to point B
even if it was inconvenient for me
but you were always safe therefore I was happy

I have been your Human Shield
to protect you from the spears of pain outside
it often left me shaken and scared
but you were unscathed so I refused to hide

I have become your Human Urinal
in order to release your desires and lust
as if your pleasures are the only ones that count
but if made you satisfied and then it became my "must

I have become your Human Punching Bag
and at times you have become mine
emotionally physically mentally harsh we've become
see just how inhuman the two of us are by this time?

The tree trunks blush in the beauty
of the sunrise that announces the day
a rare misty rainbow appears in the dawn
and shoos the cold of the formidable night
I could only thank the one for this sight
the birds chirp madly to welcome the light

Try as I may I try to concentrate on my day's events
but the mystic sight catches my eyes off guard
this rare gift that God presents
makes letting go of that moment even that more hard

Thank you for the dew.. the mist and the breeze
thank you ever so much for the rose color of the trees
such beauty is enough to bring one to one's knees
Thank you so much for small wonders such as these

I still feel the friendship between us
but I no longer see your eyes light up when I enter the room
it's the same dull sense of recognition
I sense the fateful end is coming soon
I appreciate how you watched over me
and made sure I was properly fed
But if you don't remember to nourish our love dear
then it will become malnourished and turn up dead
Oh well.. maybe I should just let it all go
it might hurt us both if I continue to fight
I treasure the delicate case around you sensitive spirit
if it is she you would rather hold tonight
Then, I give you my alone my blessings
pardon me if I fail to wish any to her
I am still left hurt and wounded from all of this
but maybe in time I will forgive

Well.. those of you who know my current situation will understand this.. if not just apply it to your own life.. :))

Your sweetness does melt my wintered chill
you kind words moves my stone spirits
your warmth allows my heart to once again feel
Hopelessness sails away and the sadness breezes past
I am grateful of your treasured friendship
your spell has been cast
in a world of carnal nothingness
you display the hope of chivalry
never let that go..
you are deserving of the best of this life
and any human shall ever know

HELP ME I AM WEAK...

Swimming in a cheesy goo..

I can't help it against a high fatty temptation..

I am weak when it comes to the purgatory of circular demons

Won't you like to join me

Swimming in my personal pizza hell!!

Aimlessly I wonder like a lonesome child

smelling of the liquid death I eat!!

Won't you come and find me!!

Swimming in my comfortable pizza hell!!